In so many ways, depression is a topic that is hard to verbalize. Distance from the conversation is more manageable than facing it head-on. Awareness is a great way to start a conversation about depression, but….
How do we make it personal?
How do we talk about OUR depression? Opening a topic and being aware of an issue helps with awareness. Still, we start a conversation when we dig deeper into our depression.
I found it extremely difficult to share this podcast episode. However, recording the episode was not difficult, and it was not hard for me to have that conversation in a microphone.
The step of actually publishing the episode was a bit tough.
After publishing it, people would know, listen to this episode, and that is when panic set in. I also had to go a step further from my cozy pink fluffy comfort zone and tell people it was available for their listening pleasure.
That is when shit gets real.
In publishing and announcing, there is an audience with opinions. But then, fear, anxiety, and stress manifest in a swarm of flying monkeys.
Talking about depression is FREAKING HARD.
You can find clinical information on depression. You will find out how to deal with it, what it is, and what medical care is.
This episode does not have that clinical information.
This episode is an outside look into depression as far as I feel about that information. The genuine conversation is with the crap in your mind and how to articulate it, so you can have a mental dump and find the help you need as an individual.
After blabbing into the microphone and then listening back to it, I needed some help on how to construct a blog post.
Enlisting someone I know that has issues with depression, we came up with this conversation. She picked out parts of the recording that struck a cord and responded to it.
In the episode, you say:
"doesn't always need to be a serious topic."
I agree with this; when depression comes up, it always has very heavy and almost taboo feelings surrounding it. But I feel like I should be able to say, "yeah, I couldn't get that done today because I was feeling too heavy with depression," without everyone going into freak out mode.